perhaps its my own wish

assalamualaikum wbt.
  this might be my hopes and dreams that potrait in my heart such for a long time ago...
i have a dream...this dream give me the inspirations for me to study hard and be strong in whatever
obstacle comes to me.. but not all dreams must come in such a great succession and with happiness right?
sometimes it make us shed our tears more often compared to happiness as well.
   why?
 i,myself sometimes can't understand this kind of situation..
i love to see these faces when i felt so lonely and think of failure...
but everytime i see them-have a lot of happiness,cheers because of their succession in their life,my hearts keep melting and tear drops through my face.

why i can't get that opportunity?
why i still deny my faith?

it seems like i'm not a grateful person that always ask for something that have been decides for me a long time ago....
i can't be like this way.
i can't be as weak as i am, today..
what i need is to be a new person that has a new vission and mission in life.
has a new goal to score..

yes!
a new vission and mission.
with that,
i really hope that one day....
my dream will come true..
               as you sow,so will you reap!

if......

assalamualaikum wbt
the story begin with....
 
"if we can touch the sky....
if we can break the rock...
if we can stop the time from running fastly...
if we were rebond...
if...if....if..."
 
    adanya perkataan if kdg2 bwt kite slalu berada dlm dunie khayalan...adnya "if" bwt kte gile bayang...adnya "if" kadang kala menjatuhkan semangat..adnya "if" kadang kala bwt kite sentiasa salahkan takdir....kte mempersoalkan knpe hal mcm ni bleh brlaku...kte salahkan diri,persekitaran,masyarakat,family sbb ap yg diimpikan x tercapai...
 tapi...kadang kala kte perlukan "if" utk kte terus berusaha utk kejar impian yg satu...
kte perlukan if utk pstikan kte tidak tersasar dr target...kte perlukan if utk memungkinkan ap sje yg tdk mungkin bg kte...kte jg perlukan if utk melakukan sesuatu di luar batasan kemampuan kte sdri....

sblm ni slalu la jgk salahkan perkataan if sbb perkataan ni slalu bwt ak sedih...perkataan if slalu bwt ak rse malu dgn dri sdri,kwn2,keluarga...knpe? sbb ak slh kan dri sdri utk sesuatu yg x dpt ak capai...utk sesuatu yg terlepas dr pegangan ak hye disbbkan time management..see,ak dh pn slhkan mse lalu..
tp kdg2 "if" bleh jd bara dlm ht..sbb?
 as an analogy...semua insan yg berada di muke bumi ad impian msg2....dan apabila adnye impian pasti kte mahu impian 2 terlaksana.cepat atau lambat..it does'nt be a matter right?...
    kte sntiasa membayangkan kejayaan org lain adalah milik kte dgn adnye "if"....so skrg kte nmpk kt mana fungsi "if" sbg bara dlm hati....ngee :)

ok lah....cukuplah 2 utk hari ni..
sme2 kte renungkan impak di sebalik perkataan "if' atau dlm bahasa melayunye "jika,kalau,sekiranya...."

 
wassalam